This is what I saw when I was filling up my gas tank today:
$3.33
0.8 gallons
Your approved limit has been reached.
Four miles later, my “low gas” light turned on again.
When You’re Money’s Gone, and You’re Drunk as Hell June 4, 2008
Corporate Crap continues to schedule me for only 16 hours a week. This is bad for multiple reasons. One is that I can’t pay my bills as it is, so if they cut my hours, I’ll be even more screwed. Two is that the $700 that I owe Evangelical Institution is legit. And I owe it by June 30th. They tell me that they won’t set up a payment plan because the deadline for setting one up was April 20. I tell them that I didn’t know that I owed anyone that much until the beginning of May. I might have to put all of it on a credit card. All I have to say is this: fuckers. Subsequently I have done two things: I have looked for another job and I have put myself in the mindset that I can’t spend money on anything other than absolute necessities. I immediately broke that rule by buying 8 episodes of The Tudors on Amazon Unbox which I spent last night and today watching. If I shouldn’t spend money on gas, and I can’t really go anywhere without spending money, I’ll just stay home and spend money. Makes sense, right? I was ultra-lazy today because I got up at 2pm because I was up til 4 am last night watching The Tudors. I should’ve just read a damn book. I tried that also today, but I just fell asleep. I also took a bath, which is something I haven’t done in a while. The damn tub was really annoying becuase the stopper doesn’t work very well. It kept leaking and I kept having to fill it up. I could go out and buy a stopper, but that involves MONEY. Water is free. Anyway, the bath was relaxing.
Having super-bad money issues like this and being faced with 16-hour work weeks is way too much to deal with. It makes me shut down and do things like watch The Tudors all day long. I can think about someone else’s drama instead of my own. The most troubling thing is that I shut down when things like this happen instead of taking initiative and going out and doing something about it. Granted, I did go job hunting, but you’d think that something of this type of urgency would inspire some action appropriate to the level of urgency. But that doesn’t happen with me, and I hate myself for it.
Once Again Confronted with my Multiple Failings April 5, 2008
Ugh. This week has sucked big time. I had a huge thing with my roommate again which was incredibly ridiculous and stressful. There were things that were my fault, but mostly it was just hugely overblown and ridiculous. My dad had to intervene. That whole thing was really surprising. My dad was actually fabulous and really helpful and reassuring. He wasn’t put out like I thought he was. Most of that was probably my imagination, because I have become accustomed to getting yelled at every time I ask for money. Plus, it just makes me feel like a kid again (and this is something I really don’t need help with). Anyway, I was really pissed about the whole thing, but Roommate did something surprising and made me not want to hate her for a while. I just can’t figure the girl out. At least I can stop trying after May is over.
Anyway, I topped off the week with getting smashed and then mildly hungover the next day. It would have been better if there had been people there, and not the dog I was dogsitting, who made feel guilty with his sad puppy eyes.
